Inspire

Wednesday 18th March 2020

Things are so hard.

So hard when you want to be with someone and they are unsure if they want you.

So hard when you show them how much you love them and you get nothing back.

Only on a very rare occasion do I get something back.

Maybe it’s me.

Maybe I’m the problem.

Maybe I’m too clingy.

Maybe I need too much reassurance.

Maybe it’s me.

I just want things to go back to how they were when we first met and it hurts that you can’t see how perfect it will be. I know things happened in the past but that doesn’t mean it will be the same again. Things are different now, I love you more than I ever have before and all I want is you and us. We are so good together but things seem to get in the way.

Maybe I’s me.

Some days are harder than others, like today.

Today you said something to me that felt like I got stabbed in the chest.

I’ve tried to forget about it but there is a part if me that can never let go when people say certain things to me. I enjoy your company even if we are sat in silence. I feel so complete when were together.

I wonder how much longer I have to wait before you realise.